It's been a while. IR, what's on your mind when you hear these latters?
Frankly, when I was high school, I knew IR from my friend Vania Anggawa, which lightly made me thinking that I should be one. Such a shame to admit, I took this matter because I want to go abroad. I didn't do some deep research of what they learn and how they live (IR students). Hence, now I got a bit regret of what I have done to myself. In IR, we learn politics, they tought me how to be critical, sometimes by my word I called it negative thinking. In IR, there is a theory of Realism, that believe our human nature is anarchy, and human is a bad thing that only wants to reach their objectives without thinking about others objectives. I don't know why, today, right now while I'm typing this blog, I feel I don't belong here. It takes me to 2009, when uncle Cuccurulo asked me what I want do for living, I said, with my own answer, I want to be steward. I'm not whining, but I think I did. Sometimes I thought this is life, you have to power thru it, no life is easy. The only thing that makes me 'survive' is because I don't want to let my parents down. This is my decision, I have to responsible for it. But thanks God, you gave me those people that could put a laugh or a smile on my face every single day. What I try to tell you is think a thousand times before you decide something, especially the big things that you can not just go if you don't like it. I don't want you to be like me, someone who used to believe on his choice, but then regret it like I never wanted it so bad. So high school students, go make your own history life, don't let ppl include your parents give a shit to your life, your life you live it today!
Chapter baru dalam hidup saya officially dimulai ketika saya menandatangani kontrak sebagai trainee Officer Development Program (ODP) Bank Tabungan Negara pada Jumat, 22 September 2017. Setelah selesai pemberkasan dan tanda tangan kontrak, kami diantar menuju LPPI sebelum besoknya harus melakukan samapta / bintalsik (bina mental dan fisik) yang rencananya dilakukan di Ringdam Bogor. Dikarenakan Ringdam sedang ada kegiatan, kegiatan samapta dipindahkan ke Brigade Infanteri Para Raider 17/Kujang I Batalyon Infanteri Para Raider 305 / Tengkorak Karawang. Dari namanya saja sudah cukup seram, logonya pun tengkorak. Secara keseluruhan saya cukup menikmati kegiatan ini. Beratnya hanya kurang tidur saja dan beberapa teman yang kurang bisa menempatkan diri sehingga mengakitbatkan teman lain ikut dihukum. Selama pendidikan dua orang menanyakan saya kenapa tidak masuk tentara, saya jelaskan dulu pernah coba polisi tapi gagal. Impian jadi polisi TNI kembali muncul tapi jal...
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