IR - International Relations

It's been a while. IR, what's on your mind when you hear these latters?
Frankly, when I was high school, I knew IR from my friend Vania Anggawa, which lightly made me thinking that I should be one. Such a shame to admit, I took this matter because I want to go abroad. I didn't do some deep research of what they learn and  how they live (IR students). Hence, now I got a bit regret of what I have done to myself. In IR, we learn politics, they tought me how to be critical, sometimes by my word I called it negative thinking. In IR, there is a theory of Realism, that believe our human nature is anarchy, and human is a bad thing that only wants to reach their objectives without thinking about others objectives. I don't know why, today, right now while I'm typing this blog, I feel I don't belong here. It takes me to 2009, when uncle Cuccurulo asked me what I want do for living, I said, with my own answer, I want to be steward. I'm not whining, but I think I did. Sometimes I thought this is life, you have to power thru it, no life is easy. The only thing that makes me 'survive' is because I don't want to let my parents down. This is my decision, I have to responsible for it. But thanks God, you gave me those people that could put a laugh or a smile on my face every single day. What I try to tell you is think a thousand times before you decide something, especially the big things that you can not just go if you don't like it. I don't want you to be like me, someone who used to believe on his choice, but then regret it like I never wanted it so bad. So high school students, go make your own history life, don't let ppl include your parents give a shit to your life, your life you live it today!